The weeks are really starting to fly by now. I feel like I am in a constant limbo or hurry up and slow down. I'm so ready for this girl to be here but I am going to miss it just being the two of us as well. Friends make fun and say I will mostly be jealous of my dad's attention to C but I think I will be jealous about J's. Perhaps I won't be jealous at all. According to everything I have ever heard I still don't understand what kind of love this is. I feel very anxious everyday about when is it all going to happen.
Thursday night I got pretty sick in the middle of the night. The next morning I called the doctor but they said if she is moving good and I can keep water down I am probably just fine. I went to work a little late. I was so busy and also had a cpr training class all afternoon. In hindsight this was probably a little too strenuous for this day since I had been so sick but I did it! After my boss was really hounding me about a bunch of stuff and just being really difficult at 9 til 5 on a Friday afternoon. He made me feel very stressed and upset and I proceeded to cry for seriously two hours. I couldn't quit crying. I feel so bad for J when I get upset over things. I don't know if he knows how to handle it or what. He always just gets really quiet. I laid in bed for a while sobbing because I physically couldn't stop when I noticed that my left hand was numb. I sat up thinking I had just been laying badly and my face went numb on the left side as well! I called J in our room completely freaked out and all of the feeling slowly came back. I was finally able to calm down and I agreed to go eat dinner. As we were about to leave the house my vision went blurry. I thought this had happened on the way home but then I thought it might just be all of the tears. This time it was worse though and definitely blurry. We decided that after I ate a little dinner we needed to go to the hospital and get checked out. Luckily, all of my weird symptoms went away but J made me go to the ER anyway. They weren't busy so we got right in. They took my blood pressure, pulse and a urine sample. My BP was pretty high (especially for me) at first but after about 45 minutes was going back to normal territory. They sent me to labor and delivery after everything checked out okay. Upstairs they put on fetal monitors and we listened to C move around for about 30 minutes. She is one busy girl! I don't know if she did or didn't like what was going on but she kicked constantly while they were monitoring. I had three contractions during this time that were very irregular. They sent me home with orders to rest and stay very hydrated. They also recommend that I take Tylenol PM (which undoubtedly I need more of.)
I think we both felt very relieved to know that everything was okay and that all of that was probably just because I got upset and my blood pressure was high. I have now been really lazy all weekend and try to take my BP every so often. It has been one lazy 4th of July weekend. We ended the weekend with hotdogs, milkshakes, movies and a random rainy July night.
I wish I could turn my brain off from 2:30 to 5 every morning but I know this is just God's way of getting me ready but I hink tomorrow I will be buying some more Tylenol PM.
We are so so so ready for this girl. We want to stare at her and love her. I have not gained any weight the last two weeks. I don't know if that is odd or not. Sometimes Dr. Smith freaks me out with all of the sonogram requests but at the same time I enjoy them because we get to know more about how big C is getting. My prediction is she will be born after her due date but there is a full moon the 18-20. J hasn't told me what he thinks. Maybe I should hound him about it.
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